Day 4:Soup to the Rescue

Well day four is finished and it has been tough.  I still have no problems feeling full, so that is a big bonus!  My darling hubby made an early morning run to get the chicken soup that we needed, and that combined with a late start day at school meant that I could eat something other than just shakes today!  That first taste of soup was divine!

I am still struggling with the idea of food.  I don't think I was ever aware how much time I spent during my day, thinking about food, planning my next meal, or looking up food related items such as new recipes or different cuisines.  It has been a MAJOR adjustment for me to not think about these things.  I find that when my mind wanders, I think about food!  It's no wonder that I am as big as I am!  I think that the reality is that even when I was doing great with food, it took up so much of my time that I really wasn't doing a great as I thought.  Does that make sense?  So my challenge today was to get past the food that I was dreaming about.  I started by writing down a list of the things I was missing as I though of them and it was a real eye opener.  Every single items that I eventually wrote down are food that I would typically put in my "emotional eating" column.  They are my comfort foods.

Here is my list:
Kraft Macaroni and Cheese with Tuna (Sounds gross, but is totally yummy!)
Mashed Potatoes and Gravy (notice the lack of meat here?)
Baked Chicken and Rice

All of these are carb heavy, fat filled foods that I have been eating since childhood.  I think I have too strong of an attachment with food.  I'm beginning to understand that my weight loss success is going to be entirely mental!  I have to relearn everything about food and the body, which will be a challenge for me.  But I can do this!